blankets

Today I was very mean!!! I washed all of the blankets in one load of laundry!!! Not the sheets, just the special "friends" and other special blankets. Our youngest 2 are very close to their blankies. Ethan was so mad at me he was stomping his feet, and poor Chloe ws just lost and sat their sucking on her little lip with tears.

It really made me think, what am I so attached to that it would "hurt" to let it go? I know the answer, but don't want to admit to it. I am the kind of person that as much as it hurts, I can let it go... however I wil replace it with something else. I used to watch to much t.v. I broke that habbit and started to spend to much time on my PC. I broke that and picked up eating to much. I broke that and ended up spending to much time on the PC again. Now I am stuck in the circle... I need to fill that space with prayer and bible reading not worldly "stuff". I need to show my kids healthy habbits, and moderation. I'm trying, and I pray that I can get there sooner than later. I am soooo tired of the battle.

This is totaly off subject, but how can a little 1 year old that is so exhausting be soooo full of peace? As I sit here waching him sleep, it calms me and helps me to know just how much our Father loves us. After all, he gave me this little guy to love and take care of. Does God look at us with the same eyes I look at Ethan with and think "How could I love someone so much?" It is hard to believe that God loves us, even more than we love our children... That is huge!