Lifes leassons

We are working on some life changes. We have to become more organized!!! So I have been trying to do a little more everyday to get myself back to where I used to be. (Pre-PPD) I have a friend that took before and after pictures of her home as she was cleaning. That takes guts! lol I thought about doing that, but I don't want anyone to see just how bad our home really is! So as we have been working around our house, Adam and I are dreaming of things we can do to change it and make it better. Things aren't going as fast as I would like, but it didn't get this bad overnight, so I guess it will take time to get it all reclaimed.

Something I have always found interesting is that as you are being obediant to God's wishes, often you feel like things go from bad to worse. As I was shoveling the drive today after church, I was thinking that. Why, why is it that as we improve in one area, something totaly different will hit. That is when I felt God tell me to check how I was doing it. Well, I know God wants me to get my house and life back in order, so I am doing it... but that isn't good enough. Am I leaning on Him? Am I starting my day with Him? Nope... so am I really being obediant? not really. Not that what I have done is bad, but I have to get my first priority back to God, then things will fall back into place. I can't drive, I need to let him drive and be willingly in the passangers seat.

So as Adam works on the van, trying to make it run again, I am sitting here praying and putting life back into perspective. God tells us he will provide, he doesn't tell us HOW he will provide. He never said he would keep our van running. He never said he would keep money in our bank account. He never said our kids would have great Christmas gifts. After all, Christmas is about Jesus' birth... why do we get gifts? I need to look for the joy, in each thing that happens around me. Me getting a job has given me a chance to see a new side of Donna. It is forcing us to force Alex to mature. Ethan and Chloe LOVE day care. There are many good things in most every situation. Even those we think are not good. We just have to look for them

Today I am blessed to have had a weekend with my family! What a huge blessing it has been. I am very blessed to be a child of God. To be loved by the maker of our universe... how much better could it get?